Letting Go..

What is this I feel
undescribed, words unspelled, unwhispered
A loss, no.. i never had
it was mist in my hand
a mirage i could not drink from

Confusion.. no
just silence inside
the heart that once danced
silenced
the music continues around
but my feet cannot move
have i lost my steps
no.. i forget

What is this that I feel Lord
the counting doesn't stop
how many more till
till i stop and say yes..
this one.

a rainless sky
yet cold
a leafless tree
yet i stand
i must live
though i do not see
colours are now painted bland
whitewashed
how do i describe

i live yet, don't i?
grateful, yes
grace covered me
my heart feels naked still
tearless sealed inside

time to look up, heart
hope lives in darkness
light does not dawn
while hope is alive
for when the sun appears on high
we see evidence of the substance
hoped for
loss in the past
gift in tomorrow's present