A Prayer

his sobbing
it was quiet
tried to hide
i heard and though
i seemed strong
i was sobbing
inside

i can't do this again Lord
please spare me the pain
of having to end.
i know it wasn't you
i put myself through
but now, in obedience i stand.

my tongue pressed to my teeth
my lips pressed together
now words escape me
silence's a friend

my thoughts fly three states down
is he sitting in his chair
is he speaking with another
beauty comforts
i don't blame him

my heart's not broken
just bound,
now rough
layers, of white gauze,
the bleeding must stop
life's draining out

time, time, time
in time.. he will heal
God's not dead
His hand's not short
He can reach and hold
What i never knew nor touched

i look to you Lord
scoop up in Your arms
Your child, till he heals
Walk in Your will
Grown into a son
who knows His Father

Protect him please
Forgive me please
Sing over him
Bless him, love on him
i know not another to ask

heal and cleanse
let it not grow yellow
keep my heart red with kindness
not black gangrene with dead hope

one day, Lord,
surprise me with joy.