living your dream

So what's it like to live your dream!? For me, I'd say, doing the two things I like most - studying music and theology/philosophy. Just before my recital last tuesday, the Lord prompted my music teachers to plant a seed in my heart. I played my last mock performance for Lisa from PSU and at the end of it, she sat silent for a few minutes. And then, she said, "How did you do that?". Ok.. by this time I feel like I'm the best concert pianist in the world! hehe. She then went on to speak of how we could prepare me to be enrolled into a Masters Music program in PSU. At the end of it, she said, "Ching, all we are seeing right now is just the tip of the iceberg. Where have you been hiding all this while? We've got to get you working up to the level you need to be at soon." Just two hours prior to that conversation, my choral conducting teacher sat me down to tell me that I need to push myself further in music. Gosh, she was hard on me but I sensed a deep concern and conviction in her voice. Just before she dropped me off to catch my bus for my music class, she told me, "I wouldn't push you that hard if I didn't think God's given you so much talent."All day, as I walked downtown, and as my bus swirled around the SW hills amidst the autumn leaves, I hugged this little secret over and over again. "I'm living my dream" and hopefully one day, I will get to use what talent I have to touch hearts and turn them to the Lord. When I looked back and saw how all my life I always thought I was never talented enough to go far in music, I realise that God saw my little heart's desire even when I doubted myself. I still remember the day I tore up all my music certificates, not in anger, but in silent resignation, thinking I'd let my childhood dream die. But you know, the Lord who was crucified is the same Lord who rose again. And if you think you've let a dream die, remember that He who created your heart is able to breathe life back into your deepest unspoken desires.