Oh My Gosh!! He’s So Cute!

that is a phrase i hear all the time in the dorms. and i smile. sometimes i get really irritated. i just got back from an interestin trip to seattle. interesting doesn't really describe it. thought-provoking more like it. i saw families holdin on to each other knowin that time is short. i saw life sparkle back on a face of one who realised she's been loved all this while. i saw how people who knew each other well loved one another despite their shortcomings.
on the way to tacoma in sarah's car we talked about relationships with her cousin, kent. he asked me one very bold question, what do you expect in a relationship? i thought that would be a difficult question for me considering that i have never really been in a romantic relationship before. but the answer shot out of my mouth before i knew it. "To be known and still loved." coming to america and living in the dorms has been very interesting. i see how people get together all the time. it can be quite different from the way relationships build at home. i see how people flirt with one another, telling the object of our passion how attractive he or she is and i wonder, do they even know each other? so what if we think the other person is cute when we haven't asked enough questions about who they are really and what they like and dont. or if we haven't taken the time to understand the joys and pain of the other. i think that if someone tells you that they like you after they have really gotten to know you a bit, then that kind of likin could put you on cloud nine. i think i am really gettin old inside. my heart sees things i never realised all my life. or maybe my heart is just honest with my many shortcomings and i guess the best present someone can have is to be known and still loved for them.