Agitations

This is one of my first poems when I was struggling to express what I felt but had no words for them. So it is a little bit intense. Uh-huh.. just a little!


Agitations of this spirit
Agitations to create
Agitations of wht insufficiency
The soul of art that would not awake

Aptly said young Keats who mourned
Pleading and puzzled at You who poem
Bards of passion and of mirth,
Reveal to me your secrets birth

Agitations of this spirit
Agitations to create
Agitated for what's out of reach
Yet empty so empty is my talent's crate.

Music escapes and leaves a stale
Mediocrity, the common scale
Philosophy mocks this ignorance
Depths of words begs abeyance
Rather than to be used
In moments of an amateur's peruse.

The waters of music
Reaches deep to overwhelming
But taste what's mine - like tumeric
Saffron balm yet not soul's suffering

Why do I not hold
the Ladle to scoop
Waves of emotions, hot or cold
Skill to blow the salty waters and bolt
Lightning to scourge
Till souls implore
"Halt"- the strength of music hurts
For beauty so deep stirs tears and blood!

This World and I

This world and I,
We don't fit somehow...
I am made for the world of fairies,
Of mushrooms and elven-high
little pixies, talking owls
Gee, this stomache ain't made for realities.

I am made of
The north and west poles
Not total dichotomy of order and chaos
Worse, I fear
Just haphazard genealogy.
Too truthful for any worldly ethos.

Wishful Thinking

Do you think if I jump
Jumo, JUMP high enough
I'd reach the heavens
Pop my head through
The golden streets
And say "Hello -
How do you do?"

Can you imagine
What Daddy would do
When He sees my head
Popping though
"You little girl,
Scared all My citizens!
Nonetheless, I'm awfully glad,
You popped by heaven!"

And then He'll wink
His great big eye
Sparkling with love, magic and twink
Then, ordering His angels to fly
Whizz me down
To earthly grounds
He wishes me, not goodbye
But soon to meet
On golden streets
'xcept I'll be on my feet!

When on this familiar earth
My heart sings and whistles
I saw my Jesus blink!
My toes smile saying
"We've touched ground, grassy green"
When all of a sudden, the singing stops
With one heavy realisation -
I forgot, to hug my Daddy God!